Where do I start........

dream:

it was raining outside, and beth was supposed to come over after a sports game finished. She called 3 hours later to say that she turned back cause it was taking too long. An old friend Ryan was randomly in the dream being a player, and Tiff/Kaitlin were trying to get his number. I think at one point I was having dinner with my best friend from elementary school dave. And my house was my old house with my grandparents from elementary school.

CRAZY!

i want 2 ipod nanos

one for music
and one for ska.

just so i could say i have a nano for ska, and a nano for nonska.

this is one of the greatest days of this new year...

0. it was beautiful outside
1.i got an A on an exam i thought i did shitty on
2. I might have a job next fall doing SI which would be amazing
3. i'm going home thursday to awesome people
4. being with beth makes me super freaking happy

WOOOO @ 2006.

feeling really good..

the ex's drunk friends!!

i'm in such a good mood these last few days.

friends come to school and make my freaking life.
talking to a lot of new people and having fun.
going to a show and perhaps canada on friday.

life is pimp squared!

i think i'll just accept the fact that i'm shy and sit in the back for the rest of my life. there's nothing i can forsee that could really help me be more outgoing.

oh, and i had the worst and best experience at a&w. best sandwhich, worst other customers who were annoying, rude, and cut in front of me. in math news, 100% of those rude customers were african american.

So it hit me today, finally, that I'm really doing something that I'm passionate about. I've been thinking lately that maybe history isn't what i want to do, then it all just kinda clicked today.

History is the class that i really enjoy the most. I get the most out of it, and I find it the most fascinating. I constantly find myself wanting to learn more stuff outside the classroom, and try and incorporate what i've learned into all my other classes. My project for Art class is probably going to be on the Art/artists that were destroyed/killed during WWI and the art during the war.

I'm glad I finally know.

Sucks that I'm probably gonna end up teaching math.

wallace and grommet curse of the wererabbit is probably one of the greatest movies ever made.

go see it.

real life not as great for me aside a few awesome people.

i really don't like who i am.

my mind is the worst thing in my life.

ciao.

I'm proud of myself.

I read/studied History for a good 2-3 hours today. Bask in my holiness.

Exams: Thursday, Friday, Monday.

Progressives are sweet. You owe it all to progressives.

why are all job applications online and take 50min to complete.

stupidest shit ever.

Philosophy is an amazing class. It's everything I expected it to be so far. I love talking about ethics, and about questions that don't have an answer, and looking for the truth. It is, the cat's pajamas.

The kids in my class however, do not apparently.

Professor: I don't really care if you die during my course. You've paid, and that's let's for me to grade.
Class: OMG I CANT BELIVE THE BITCH SAID THAT!!! FUCK HIM!!!!!
Me: It's true... and it's awesome.

Professor: Anything
Black kids in the front row: Well, that actually doesn't apply to black people because of everything we've gone through. you can't lump us with white people (paraphrased).
Me: What the fuck... die.




The most annoying thing in the world, is black people who hate because of the past. I plan on being a history teacher, and I know the past is important. However, it's important in the sense of repeating or not repeating itself. The institution of slavery was a horrific thing, and people can see through history how terrible it was, and we'll never see it arise again. History is not for bringing up "well you mowed over 'my' people for generations so it's impossible for me to get ahead, and you obviously hate me, and i in tern hate you."

i don't think i will ever be able to put into words, how much disapprovement i have at the idea that most african american's have. i live with about 90% black people in my dorm, and the rudeness is overwelming.

i'm not racist at all. i don't dislike black people. i dislike the idea that because the past happened, african americans have to dwell on it forever. i don't think you'll find any non-white suppremist that will say "slavery wasn't a bad idea".

In my english class i peer reviewed a paper that asked the question "why arne't black males getting to college?" In it, he talked about a personal example at his school. The 4.0 valedictorian of his class, didn't go to college to pursue a rap career. The same as his brother did 2 years prior as his classes salutorian. It literally blew my mind. The paper he wrote was excellent, and it really opened my eyes. HE volunteered at places all over the city trying to get teens involved in going to college, and saw hardly any results. Fascinating I say.

Wow, I dunno what made me decide to write this, but it just came out.

By the way: Friday January 13th = 6 months. <3 anne

this just in: someone pulled the fire alarm last night.

nobody notified room 312.

both were safe cause it was fake. but if it was real, who knows.

man, that was hilarious.

Reflection on my first semester in college:

1. College > High School
2. After a rocky start, I really enjoy college life.
3. My literature class has taught me more than any class ever.
4. My math teacher is so funny and awesome i'm taking him next semester in Calculus I.
5. I miss my car, but will have it this semester hopefully.
6. I still love Anne.
7. I miss going to shows, but will definately go to more now that I'll have my car.
8. I have to get a job >_____________________________<
9. Out Cold is a hilarious movie.

ect...

I don't have anything bad to report.

School is going well. I should get all A-B's in my classes. I only have 3 final exams and 1 project.

My Aunt and I are going on a date Friday to get Dinner and a movie, and perhaps Anne too.

Oh, I guess there was a bummer. I went to a show last night at a bar to see 45 cents. It woulda been cool if Derek went, but he couldn't, so I tried going by myself. Basically, the doors open at 9 when I got there, and they started playing at 10:45. an hour and 45min of me sitting there with a bunch of 25 year old hicks drinking beer and their girlfriends who probably get beat when they get home in a drunken rage. I left after the first band and never went back.

Today: studying some stuff, and probably laxing playing videogames.

So, I don't really update this, but I'm bored, and Ima do this before I go back to studying.

Well, college is fun. Next year, Mr. Marky-poo comes here, and I can't wait.

Classes are going pretty well. Psych exam tomorrow, and 2 projects gotta be working on.

Reading "The Stranger" - sweet book.

Uhhhh, I dunno what else to say. OOOOH yeah. I come home on Tuesday, until Sunday. Perhaps I'll see some of you members there.

I'm outie.

I'm coming home this weekend.

On the to do list:

1. See Mrs. Conaton about my placement questions... it's terrible how much I forgot
2. Hang out with Derek
3. Hang out with Sam
4. GO TO A CIDER MILL
5. Have good chinese...
6. Hang out with anyone else that would enjoy to.

I went to U of M today, that was fun. Yeah i didn't go to math, but i could teach the crap he has us doing. Sooooooo... Anne > Math.

<3<3Anne<3<3

it's been a while since i've updated. well, before i left for Eastern.

It's been fun. I've missed some people, but am coming home this weekend so hopefully I can hang out with a few.

I admit, I was thinking that this wasn't for me. But it had a lot to do with something I'll talk about in a bit. I was very depressed about college, but am doing much better now. I might end up getting a job on the U of M campus in Downtown Ann Arbor, which would let me spend more time with the love of my life. We'll see how money goes.

Which brings me to the most amazing part of my life right now, Anne. I'm so glad to have her. We get together every weekend and I spend the night there on Friday night. It's the greatest thing going on right now. I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. She even came over on Saturday night to spend the night. I love you so much Anne, and it makes me the happiest person ever to know you feel the same way.

Well, back to some reading homework. That seems to be the only thing I get, aside from a paper here or there. My classes are pretty simple.

til later. i'll try to update more often.

come sat. bye.